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Harm (person who gambled perspective)

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Affected others experience disruption to their social life and connection to the community.  Taking part in social groups and activities that matter to you and feeling that you belong are very important to being happy and healthy. This also has practical benefits, as you can get information and resources for daily life and help when you need it. So, this disruption to social life is very damaging.

Many affected others felt social groups and communities did not understand or stigmatised gambling difficulties, and they were judged “guilty by association”. Affected others could be stopped from social activities by exhaustion, low self-worth and shame, by abuse or not having money. The prevalence of gambling and its advertising in everyday life can force them into social exclusion. The experience of rejection or alienation from their social circle or community can be long-lasting.

I had lost my mojo. I wasn’t the same person as I was prior to us meeting. My bubbly personality had gone and in turn, I become isolated from loved ones.

During gambling

Affected others in relationships marked by conflict, tension, or domestic abuse report significant social isolation resulting from their partner’s behaviour. They may also not have money for social activities. Additionally, stigma and shame separates them from communities.

I don’t do a lot of things, I’m not as outgoing as I used to be. I’m stressed all the time. I’m worrying about money constantly. When we have it, I’m worried that he is going to gamble it. When we don’t have it, I am worried about where it’s going to come from.

My social life became quite narrow really, and because it was kind of this thing about he needed me to be there. He wanted to know what I was doing at every minute of every day, but yet I didn’t know very much about what he was doing at every minute of every day.

He’d become exceptionally paranoid, it just built up into a frenzy where he knew I was threatened, and he knew I didn’t want to be there. But then every time he left to go out, he sort of threatened me, that you’d better be there when I come back because if you’re not– And I was too scared and I didn’t know where to go and I had nowhere else to go and I didn’t want to go and tell people about this thing that was happening, because as far as everyone was concerned, we were having a nice marriage… He’d left after dragging me out of bed to get me to give him my bank card, which was the only card that was left in the house.

I have opened up to people that I thought were people that I could trust and that would listen to me. I had some people at work that I thought I had a good relationship with, and then my mum is never really, she has to try to understand. People at work, there’s one in particular, I used to go everywhere, I used to do Slimming World with her, we would go on nights out, we would catch up with work, I was there for when she was struggling and vice versa. When I told her about [partner’s] problem, her response was you should leave him, and she said it a few times. I went from thinking I could talk to her and open up to not wanting to talk to her, because if I tell her, then it’s like, I’m being stupid about why are you not leaving him?

The same with another work colleague, she was the same. She would say the same thing. You just want to leave him. I’m a single mum, I’m fine on my own, I was in an unhappy marriage. Her reasons were different, I was in an unhappy marriage and I left, but it isn’t that easy. What they don’t understand is it made me feel like I was stupid and people thinking, “Oh, she’s a doormat,” but there’s more to it than that. I know the person that [partner] was and that he is with this addiction out of the way.

I don’t want to just leave him because his family’s pretty much abandoned him. I don’t want to just be like, it’s easy for me to walk away and I’ve got a son with him as well now. I don’t want us to have a bad relationship, whether it worked out or not, I still want to support him. If we were to split up tomorrow, I would still want to have a good relationship with him and be someone that he can talk to because I know he has not really got that with his family and I want his son to grow up the same as well, feeling supported after this.
It was difficult then to speak to them. One of them has actually ended up having to deal with an addiction in her family since, but it was a drug addiction. She is apologetic now, because she’s like you can’t just leave them, they’re family, and it’s like, exactly. The other one I still talk to, but I don’t talk about this.

Even with my mum, like my mum is supportive, she’ll do whatever I want, but she does get frustrated, and sometimes I’ll just say something, she’ll just be very blunt and I’m like, “I don’t need to hear what you think I should do, I just want you to be there to support me, and let me talk.” I’m not very good at talking when I’m struggling anyway with my mental health, I just shut down. It’s a big thing for me to open up and then to feel like I’m going to be judged, I just won’t and I’ll just withdraw.

Clare

Legacy

Affected others could experience limits on their social connections in the long term.

The social lives of affected others could be disrupted because gambling is everywhere. Affected others may avoid social situations involving gambling to support the person trying to stop or because reminders of gambling are distressing.

We have to do things slightly differently in life. We might have gone for a day out to a race. We wouldn’t do that again. We have to think about it now. Can’t even do a raffle because a raffle can trigger a gambler. We still do a once a year we do a family golf day, in remembrance of my father. And we always used to have a raffle. We had to stop doing the raffle, and we had to make it clear to other people who came along why we did because of [son]. So, it’s impacted us lots of ways… and it’s impacted on just what we do in life and our interests and how we can spend our time.

The thing that’s always been there though is, that we never do anything that’s associated with gambling. It’s almost like saying if you’re trying to lose weight and you’re dieting, and then somebody came and stuck a cream cake in front of you, or whatever you like, whether it’s crisps or whatever, just said, I’m going to leave that there, just don’t eat it. If you were steely, steely, you’d think, no, I’m not going to eat it. Depending on how strong you felt that day, you wouldn’t eat it.

We don’t obviously do raffles anymore either or anything like that. We’re quite strict with it. That was my choice. I made a decision to not gamble anymore. And [our daughter] questioned it one time at a Christmas Fair, and I was like because that’s a form of gambling, and we just explain it to them.

Affected others may experience persistent anxiety about the person, which can stop them from engaging in normal activities, like going on holiday.

You don’t want to be more than an hour away from your child. You don’t want to go on holiday, because the fear, addiction gives you this overwhelming fear like nothing else, because you can lose someone. They can step out off a curb and get hit by a bus, and that is horrific and awful. Addiction, it’s here all the time, and it’s moving around us all the time, and we’re never quite sure when it’s going to grab him.

Affected others could be rejected or ostracised because of the stigma linked to gambling difficulties. They may feel permanently alienated because their social group does not understand. Sometimes the behaviour of the person with gambling difficulties left them embarrassed or ashamed or caused people to break ties with them also.

A lot of rebuilding friendships, high school friendships that he hadn’t– I’d been going out with him for five or six years and hadn’t heard of these people.

To the outside world, probably at least three-quarters of our friends, maybe more, he was such an easy-going and quite a strong opinionated person but he was also quite kind. He always paid for stuff, they never, not hardly any of them really knew what he was properly like. And obviously, when they did, I don’t know what happened, maybe they took too much money off him, too many drinks off him, too many parties off him, I don’t know but when it all happened, they all disappeared on me.

I lost so many friends… I’ve even had a couple of women drop me a message to say that they’ve not been in contact because obviously after my trauma, I just want to leave the past behind. Does that mean I have to have my brains out? I can’t talk to anybody I spoke to the day before he did that, and they were friends again of 10 years. It brought out the weirdest– I honestly just felt like I should have been giving them all therapy. It was really difficult because all I wanted was people to say, are you all right? But they all seem to be struggling with it.

But when it all happened they all disappeared on me. I lost so many friends. Well, you say, friends. I lost so many people who I thought were friends and I’m not talking about acquaintances, I’m talking about 10, 12, 15-year friendships, odd holidays, kids’ parties, the lot. I’ve now got two ladies here living with me now genuinely that are still my friends and still have bothered to, we’ve all looked out for each other because obviously, not just looking out for me. Nobody else has bothered to contact or anything and it just makes you laugh because we were always the biggest givers.

If he was there, he used to love showing off. It was never needed, we never wanted him to but he just liked to. It becomes a very lonely time. It’s amazing, once you become single without a husband, I think women start to get funny. I don’t know why because God’s sake, like I need any more trouble? But I think generally, I feel like they do. They get all protective at that age, like 50-year-olds. They get all oooh and then obviously when he did what he did at like nearly a year later, when everyone keeps saying, “Oh, they don’t mean it,” they just didn’t know what to say. I don’t say that as an excuse, unfortunately. I don’t think that’s an excuse. Don’t say anything. Just send me two kisses.

I didn’t ask for anything from anybody but if I sent an undercover journalist out to speak to every single one of these people and they asked a specific question, I bet you they would always have said, “Oh, Julie would’ve done that. Julie would’ve organised that, Julie would’ve gone and got that,” because Julie always did the mother hen kind of thing that I’ve got. It went out, it outstretched further than my family to some friends as well but I don’t think about it, that’s the way I am. I’ve always been that way and I will never be any different but it’s been quite shocking. A real lesson into just the inside of people. I’ve even had a couple of women drop me a message to say that they’ve not been in contact because obviously after my trauma, I just want to leave the past behind. Does that mean I have to have my brains out? I can’t talk to anybody I spoke to him the day before he did that and they were friends again of 10 years. It brought out the weirdest– I honestly just felt like I should have been giving them all therapy. It was really difficult because all I wanted was people to say, are you all right?

Julie

I’m not somebody who cares too much what other people think, but because of the way that he was with the alcohol, I can certainly look my neighbours straight in the eye now, that I don’t have him here.

One person explained their need to move house, as it was the place where they had experienced trauma with their ex-partner. This meant they were distanced from family.

I have to move from this house. Even had to warn my silly parents who would hate it if I lived any further away from now. But I’ve said, “I can’t stay here much longer because it’s just everyday, I’ll walk out of the front door, I pull in everyday, same thing. It doesn’t change.” I don’t think anything else above pulling round that corner and seeing the same thing I saw.

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