Recovery
Recovery (person who gambled perspective)

Telling people

Shame and stigma make it very hard for affected others to confide in people or seek help. Affected others are careful about who they talk to. Sometimes, they confide in family or friends, though it may take time to do so. Some felt judged by people’s reactions. Others said that telling others about their situation was very important to their recovery journey.

Although some people do not understand gambling difficulties, affected others report that they are supportive once they know more about it.

We’ve been open pretty much from day one with immediate family. It did take a little while before we told some friends. And that’s partly because I didn’t understand it enough… Now that now I know more, if I talk to people, I try to talk to them in a sort of way that is factual, in a way that’s objective… Once I think those people have known the details behind it and understand it, they have been supportive.

Affected others are careful about who they chose to tell. But having someone they could confide in was very important.

I would always talk to the same friend. It was just too good to have somebody who would just listen. It’s that kind of friendship where they know when you want an opinion, and when you don’t, and the opinion, discussions or the proper discussions would never happen at those hard times. They’d happen at other times where you could explore your own feelings about it because it’s really complex.

I just felt like I needed a bit of somebody to talk to, really. What I did, in the end, was after all the craziness, I had by that time confided in a few people what was happening because you just have to. Otherwise, it’s just you, isn’t it? I did confide in a few people just to have that support network really, which really helped me.

However, not everyone who confided in others had a supportive response. Some were advised to leave the relationship, which made it more difficult for them to open up to other people.

I have opened up to people that I thought were people that I could trust and that would listen to me. I had some people at work that I thought I had a good relationship with, and then my mum is never really, she has to try to understand. People at work, there’s one in particular, I used to go everywhere, I used to do Slimming World with her, we would go on nights out, we would catch up with work, I was there for when she was struggling and vice versa. When I told her about [partner’s] problem, her response was you should leave him, and she said it a few times. I went from thinking I could talk to her and open up to not wanting to talk to her, because if I tell her, then it’s like, I’m being stupid about why are you not leaving him?

The same with another work colleague, she was the same. She would say the same thing. You just want to leave him. I’m a single mum, I’m fine on my own, I was in an unhappy marriage. Her reasons were different, I was in an unhappy marriage and I left, but it isn’t that easy. What they don’t understand is it made me feel like I was stupid and people thinking, “Oh, she’s a doormat,” but there’s more to it than that. I know the person that [partner] was and that he is with this addiction out of the way.

I don’t want to just leave him because his family’s pretty much abandoned him. I don’t want to just be like, it’s easy for me to walk away and I’ve got a son with him as well now. I don’t want us to have a bad relationship, whether it worked out or not, I still want to support him. If we were to split up tomorrow, I would still want to have a good relationship with him and be someone that he can talk to because I know he has not really got that with his family and I want his son to grow up the same as well, feeling supported after this.
It was difficult then to speak to them. One of them has actually ended up having to deal with an addiction in her family since, but it was a drug addiction. She is apologetic now, because she’s like you can’t just leave them, they’re family, and it’s like, exactly. The other one I still talk to, but I don’t talk about this.

Even with my mum, like my mum is supportive, she’ll do whatever I want, but she does get frustrated, and sometimes I’ll just say something, she’ll just be very blunt and I’m like, “I don’t need to hear what you think I should do, I just want you to be there to support me, and let me talk.” I’m not very good at talking when I’m struggling anyway with my mental health, I just shut down. It’s a big thing for me to open up and then to feel like I’m going to be judged, I just won’t and I’ll just withdraw.

Clare

Affected others describe their experience of telling their children about their partners gambling. They want to try and protect them.

It had been things like them mentioning amusements, mentioning going to the races and that kind of thing that prompted the conversation with the eldest and [partner] was just honest with her. And he just said, Look, this is what happened to me. Obviously, we didn’t go into massive details, but he said that some people can get addicted to it and it can cause a lot of harm. And that’s what happened to him, and he worked really hard to not let that happen again. He doesn’t want that happening to her in the future. And yeah, they’ve both sort of really understood. And now my daughter, she gets really frustrated about the adverts and stuff and she’ll say, like when she sees the safer gambling message pop up like really quickly, she goes, oh, you barely saw that it was on for like two seconds, but she gets quite frustrated about it. There was something, it might have been a raffle. That was it. So, we don’t obviously do raffles anymore either or anything like that. We’re quite strict with it. That was my choice. I made a decision to not gamble anymore. I didn’t really gamble anyway, but I stopped doing raffles and things. And she questioned it one time at a Christmas Fair, and I was like because that’s a form of gambling, and we just explain it to them we try and treat them like, you know, because they’re quite mature and sensible. So, we felt like they were in a better place to understand. Our middle, we don’t think she’s quite there yet, so she’s not really aware of it or so we don’t think but we’ll definitely tell them all eventually when the time comes.

Charlotte

People who had a parent who gambled describe the difficulty of telling anyone about what they were experiencing when they were children. This was made worse by nobody asking them what was happening.

I never told anyone about gambling, not teachers, not anyone at the school, not friends… No one asked me if there was anything going on at home. I was always sort of focused… I didn’t want there to be any complaints to give a reason to my dad to go and hit me or cause abuse or anything like that. I made sure that I didn’t cause any trouble at school and if I did have any problems at school, I would beg them not to tell my dad.

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